puisi untuk Zein
Do you know why we celebrate our birthday?
because it was the day
when your mother’s vagina flourish
to bring out a live
from that small hole
you thought small and fragile
Do you know why your birthday is special?
it was to remind you
about your mother when she screamed
and giving you a pressure
to be in charge of your own living
Do you know why we are forgetting such reminder?
because we forget that once we were born
from a woman’s womb
because we think pregnancy is all about joy
and because we hate to remember the pain
What are you wishing for your birthday?
a better everything of what you already had?
or saying “Thank you for giving me birth” to your mother?
Do you know why your feeling mix up on that day?
because it was the same feeling your mother once had
when she heard you crying and reaching out
on the same date every year
she remember your birthday that way
Why are you happy in your birthday?
because you know your father
you are certain of your beginning
and anticipate the ending
to have it carved on your tombstone
What are you thinking today?
You are one year older
you were born and move on
Kasongan, 19 April 2007